CNN anchor Chris Cuomo addressed his indefinite suspension from the network, saying it “hurts” and is “embarrassing” but that he “understands it.”

Cuomo said Wednesday he appreciates why some people “feel the way they do about what I did.” In helping his brother, the former governor of New York, he said “the last thing I ever wanted to do was compromise any of my colleagues and do anything but help,” according to journalist Jeremy Barr.