Blowing off concerts is one thing, but Amy Winehouse reportedly missed her own 25th birthday party — leaving gift-bearing friends waiting and reducing her own mom to tears — all because she thought she looked “ugly.”

On Saturday, according to the U.K.’s Sun, three separate cabs were sent to bring Amy to the London club where loved ones and a

guitar-shaped cake awaited her. The troubled singer’s best friend, Remi, reportedly ended up taking the third taxi back to the bash, after unsuccessfully pleading with the troubled singer to join the festivities.