TRENTON, N.J. (AP) — A New York rabbi broke down and sobbed Tuesday as a federal judge sentenced him to nearly four years in prison for laundering close to a million dollars in what he thought were illicit funds through a religious charity.

“I have been living in shame. It is hell for me every day,” Rabbi Mordchai Fish said as he held his head in his hands during a rambling statement to the court. “I don’t blame anyone but myself. I was wrong. I was so very wrong.”